The Art of Compromising Without Losing Yourself
When plans collapse, sometimes what remains is exactly what you needed all along.
Life? Just a series of f*cking compromises you didn’t sign up for.
You don’t want to compromise, perhaps.
But it will force you.
People think that their efforts are all that matter.
They are bluffing or they don’t know the reality.
Where did we falter?
Did we even falter? Or was it life’s plan?
Maybe it wants to teach us.
I take a positive approach even if all I want is to blame life.
I couldn’t go abroad.
Why? Because of money.
Was my profile not enough?
Or was my family income just… too low?
(In terms of international students, they’re expected to pay full —
like 2,00,000+ USD for 4 years. That’s ₹1.6 crore. Let that sink in.)
So yeah. It’s hard.
But you know what you do?
You compromise with life. Again.
You make a backup plan.
And then pretend this time, it’ll work.
I had written a long time ago that I would get into IIT KGP once I scored 96th percentile in JEE MAINS in one of my YouTube comment replies.
And… tbh I kinda regret it.
I didn’t fail JEE ADVANCE.
I just failed to be perfect.
And maybe, that’s enough to keep me haunted.
So yeah, if you are a well-wisher of TTD, please pray for me.
I have realized my mistake, and yup, I really hope I get into IIT KGP.
All I have to do is hope.
Everything is in His hands.
Reality is like pearls attached to the strings of his play.
And we are specks of dust on those pearls.
Are the dusts still bound? I don’t know.
But we all believe that everything has a purpose.
Perhaps it’s not just that.
It may be just that spontaneity leads to order in the long run.
What about the things that can’t be changed?
Umm… there is quite a way.
Particularly our attitude & reaction to the circumstances.
It’s on us if we want to scream and create a tantrum or if we want to accept it calmly.
And another thing is I will say it in the end…
It’s on us if we choose to scream, throw tantrums,
or quietly accept and move forward.
And when you’re done screaming?
That’s when you ask:
“What about NIT Agartala? It’s out of WB.”
“What about IEM? Or Narula?”
“They’re private colleges though…”“What about govt colleges near home?”
“Oh right — mom won’t let me stay in hostel…”
I don’t mean in the slightest bad way.
But what I’m trying to say is… maybe and just maybe there are options open elsewhere with no extra effort. But the conditions we have in our mind… they bind us.
But still, we try.
We are HUMAN CREATURES.
Trying to find hope in everything that we can’t have.
I don’t at all mean it in a bad way.
But compromises are inevitable.
I was thinking… What type of man am I?
Immature kid, maybe.
I’m just a guy with a pocket full of regrets,
trying to build a life that she deserves —
with whatever’s left of me.
But at heart, I just want to be better,
so that I can give the life my girl deserves.
Nothing less than that.
And I’m grateful.
God gave me a girl so brave.
So strong.
So scarred…
And yet still standing.
And at this moment, all I wish is for her freedom.
I just hope that she gets what she wants in her life.
I hope she gets it soon.
Her peace is so interconnected to my peace that I can almost feel it.
In life, you compromise…
But when you do, people should do it with an open heart.
Not with a regret to hold on to.
They kill you from the inside.
Either you accept your faults and compromise again with reality.
Or you fight back with everything you have.
With everything you’ve got.
And sometimes, when life sees that you didn’t back down — it smiles.
And if it’s satisfied,
It rewards you.
And if not?
Well…
You’re back to square one.
But stronger.
Sharper.
Different.
And maybe,
That’s where the real reward hides.
And no matter where life tosses me next —
Another thing that doesn’t change.
My love for her. Uncompromised.